by Freda Baschab
Hi! My name is Freda and I would like to share my story with you.
I grew up on the West coast in sunny California. At the age of 13, I got involved in using and dealing drugs, plus every wicked thing you could imagine.
At the age of 18, just out of the clear blue, my parents decided to go to church as a joke. My mother came home completely wacko! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus is all she would talk about. “You need to go to church,” She would say.
After struggling with the idea for a while, I gave in. I went to church. I even asked Jesus, who I knew nothing about, to save me from a place called “Hell.” Two weeks later I was back on drugs.
After that, it was a downhill trend for about eleven years of my life. Inside I was empty. I had made a total mess of my life, with three children, married, divorced, and in another terrible relationship. I was wounded, broken, and miserable.
Some friends that I had been partying with started visiting a little church in Fayetteville, Arkansas. They kept inviting me to go with them. Inside I was screaming yes, but outwardly I had an attitude. I was just not good enough for those self-righteous people!
I went to church the next Sunday. It was different. The people were not at all what I had imagined. They were very friendly and welcoming.
I continued to attend regularly. It was there I learned that I was not the one that had to be righteous (I couldn’t be even if I tried). God was righteous (Jeremiah 9:24), and because He is righteous, He cannot be with sin (Isaiah 59:2). In Genesis 1:27, the Bible speaks of how we were created in God’s image to reflect His righteousness, everything that is right and good. But man disobeyed God and became a fallen creature, separated from God. The Bible says we have all sinned (Romans 3:24). We cannot reflect God if we are sinful in nature (Romans 5:12). God is also a just and fair God, and He has to judge us for our sins. All sin comes with a price, which is spiritual death or separation from God eternally. The final destination of spiritual death is the Lake of Fire (Revelation 20:14,15).
The most humbling part of God’s nature is that He is a loving God. He did not want to be separated from us because He loves us so much. That’s why He sent His own Son to pay the price for our sins (John 3:16). He was nailed to a wooden cross, buried in a borrowed tomb, and rose again after three days in the grave (I Corinthians 15:4). Through His death and resurrection He conquered death, hell, and the grave (I Corinthians 15:54, 55). Now after hearing the truth of God and understanding who He was, and who I was, I knew just where I stood with Him. I realized the ball was in my court now. I had to make a decision, to choose life eternal with Jesus as Lord of my life OR death forever!
Well, I chose life, by simply being willing to turn away from my sins, to repent (Luke 13:3, Acts 11:18). I asked God to forgive me for hurting Him and going against His plan for my life. I opened the door of my heart to Jesus and invited Him to be Lord of my life. At that MOMENT – I WAS CHANGED (2 Corinthians 5:17). I was no longer empty. He filled me up with His peace and joy and gave me His gift of eternal life (Romans 6:23b).
I am glad it was free! My works are as filthy rags (Isaiah 64:6). I placed my full trust and confidence in what Jesus did on the cross for me (Titus 3:5).
Many times I hear people say I am searching for God, when in reality there is none that seeks after God (Romans 3:10-12). The truth is that Jesus came to seek and to save those lost in sin (Luke 19:10).